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Monday, 27 June 2011
难过
Im crying now. But i cant exactly put into words why. Recently, it's getting harder and harder for me to express my feelings to others. Sometimes i wanted to talk to somebody some things, but i just cant phrase what i wanna say out. So with a group of friends, i may end up not talking at all, or just hear me saying very superficial things. Just crap, and not my thoughts. Perhaps i cant find the right person to talk to. Or perhaps im turning into some sort of a loner soon.Finding a true friend is so hard. I went for many outings recently, but i dont even feel like blogging about the "seems-so-exciting" outings. From these outings, i can fully understand a sentence that i always like: “孤单，是一个人的狂欢。狂欢，是一群人的孤单。” Everyone gathered together because they felt lonely. They need a company. But after all these parties, are they satisfied in their heart? I guess the answer is no. At least, this is what i felt. Truthfully, i didnt really make very close friends with the people from the jiong recordings. They are just like acquaintances, not friends. I can hang out with them the whole day, but they dont know anything about me and neither do i know anything about them. I don't want anymore acquaintances, i have more than enough of them. When u see 50+ friends on msn and 100+ friends on fb, and there's none that u can really chat to, u'll realise there's something really going wrong. There's no one i can talk to. 这是空虚的，这是。。。悲哀的。 For me, though it seems like im surrounded with friends, but there's only a handful that i can talk to. And i really mean only a handful.. And my close friends are all so busy with their own stuffs that i can hardly talk to them. I assume that having fewer close friends is part of a process of growing up. Guess i've to do everything myself. Tmr im watching movie alone. Let's hope i wont cry whole night tonight. Lynn, u are strong. =) |
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