So when we reached there, we sort of helped Hong by drawing the "Happy Birthday" wording and cutting the words out. There's nothing much to help so after everything's done and since the rest of Hong's friends were late, the 3 of us were still the only friends there at the chalet after all the decorations done. lol.  

We had so much time that me and kat actually finished our make up and polished our nails before the friends came. LOL. And i had time for some cam whore session. haha~ 

 

Ah~ so this is me with kat's bling bling specs. lol. How do i look? I feel like buying similar specs for normal wear. With black frame of course~ should i go and get one? I think i look fine right? haha. 

Anyways~ after all the photo-taking, Hong's friends started to arrive... actually the birthday celebration felt like a mini class gathering cos most of his friends are actually my sec sch classmates. LOL. Kinda cool to catch up with them. =)

And Yang and HR were late for the celebration~ =3= so our double-clique took a photo together after the cake cutting~ 

Double-clique! <3 All of us (except hr.. joined us when we were sec 3) were classmates since sec 1. So we all knew each other for the 8th yr already??? Time really flies~ i really treasure them.. =) I love u guys! <3

After Hong's friends left, we double clique stayed at the chalet and played some drinking card game~ we cant even finish half a bottle of the absolute vodka and we stopped playing the game alrdy. LOL. Recently i've been less addicted to alcohol. Dont really have the craving for it.. or else i'll insist to continue the game untill we finish whatever alcohol that's present in the chalet. lol. 

After the game, some laid on the bed (i was sitting on the floor) and we (that doesnt include hui long and hr, who were most prob in their lalaland finding their inner peace. lol) had some random chats together, when yang get annoyed with my “世界上没有好男人”  chanting, and when yang and kat had their "hi 5" for some 'enlightenment' that i announced to them. lol. 

Then, after few hours of chatting, most of them went to another room with stronger air-con to sleep, while i was wondering around the chalet as i don't have any 'feel' to sleep. lol. So, i ended up not sleeping at all and i went home with hr ard 7am so i can catch some sleep at home. 

I was like only 1/4 awake for the journey back and when i reached home, i cant even bother to unpack my stuffs and just jumped for my bed and fell asleep within 0.0001s. LOL. Nevertheless, i still enjoyed the sleepless night with the Clique. =)

"Why can't u just have a clean emotional break from him?" 

I paused for a long moment and i cant find an answer for that question. This question penetrated through my heart and i can feel the strong sense of frustration through the voice though i cant see the expression.

Im sorry i have to share it with u. I just wish that i can tell u so u'll know how i feel at the moment. Hope im not annoying u. I've struggled for a while to tell u all these, maybe im thinking to much, but i feel that telling u all these may hurt u somehow. Hmm.. just wanna say again.. Sorry and Thank u for listening to me.. =) 

I really dont know the reason. I really need some time to heal. I'll try my best to forget. Im making a lot of effort to let go. Though the progress is baby step at each try, i believe one day i'll be truly fine. I can do it. =)