Hmm~ was reading xiaxue's blog some time back and her blog inspired me to blog abt makeovers. Some people may say that xiaxue's is bimbo.. fake.. bitchy.. etc. but in my opinion, i feel that she's kinda a cool person.

She's willing to be open about what she did to make herself to look better physically. She admitted she did 2 eye jobs (cutting her double eyelids and cutting end of her eyes to make her eyes look larger) and 2 nose jobs (there's 2 cos the first one made her nose crooked, so she did another one to correct it). She even shared a video about the details of her plastic surgery, not fearing ppl to call her a plastic. She also shared video about how she did her makeup and she also admitted she did some photoshop on her photos. Kinda brave.

So this is how she look like before and after the surgery:

Here's another pic of her with and without makeup:
Its still a big difference. So can see that makeup really helps alot~

I personally feel that we shouldn't criticize people who did plastic surgery... cos it really takes huge load of courage to go through the whole process. The pain during the surgery, the months of swelling, the amount of money u have to invest and the negative comments other people may say about u (eg. fake, plastic.. blah blah). These people have the determination to endure through all these crap in order to look prettier. So, dont criticize them if dont have the courage urself.

Wow. I say like i did plastic surgery before. Fending for all plastics. lol. Im still natural. haha.

Beauty is always attainable, it only depends on the extent of how far u wanna go.

If u are scared of pain or u have no money for a surgery, makeup can do as well too~ and i believe the key points to a successful makeup is the focus on the eyes. U need a good eyeshadow, fake eyelashes and suitable contact lenses. Below are a few excellent examples:
This one puts here focus on the the eyeshadow~ eyeshadow with the correct dark shading at the upper and lower ends of ur eyes can create an illusion that ur eyes are bigger. But always be cautious about the amount u put, excessive usage turns u into a panda instead. lol.
This is a very natural makeup~ but this doesnt means she didnt do anything to her face. The important point for her makeover is her contact lenses. Coloured lenses with wide eyes effect can make ur eyes bigger. Also, while drawing the eyeliner, u have to draw as close to ur lashes as possible and fill up any empty gaps to make its seems that u have thick lashes.
Err.. this one is a little.. horrifying. HAHA. I guess she's just trying to make herself as ugly as possible for the before photo to set the the contrast with the after photo. LOL. But u can see that she did some styling to her hair. So.. Styling ur hair is impt too!
This is the most kua zhang one i ever seen. She spam alot of foundation to create a good complexion. She also use the double eyelid stickers for her double eyelids. This is the most critical part to create bigger eyes if u are single eyelids or ur double eyelids are not obvious (like mine. =3=). But the stickers are a nuisance to me as they are hard to handle and some practise is required to perfect the skill. Lol.

If u say that u dont know how to makeup, u can go to youtube to search for makeup and hair styling tutorials. This is how i learn to makeup. A few good ones are Queenie and Michelle Phan~

If u dont know how to dress, look at fashion magazines. Not to buy the freaking atas clothes that cost a few k, but to know what's the fashion trend and buy their lookalikes at shops like.. New Look.. Cotton On.. etc. Or u can go to bugis streets.. sometimes u'll be amazed of what u fish out fr the shops there. haha. Or u can go blog shops.. the clothes are super cheap sometimes. haha.

So as u can see, beauty is in our hands. It all just depends on whether u want to put in the effort to make urself look better. Makeup can be time-consuming at times, but.. no pain, no gain isnt it? lol.

There's this one fine day, i got too bored revising for my exams and ended up playing with my makeup. lol. =p
This is me with makeup. There's a reason why i took only half of my face.. cos...
The other half is w/o makeup on. HAHA. I wanna see how much diff there is of me with and w/o makeup. Can see that the face with makeup is smaller than the other w/o makeup. HAHA.Before and after makeup~ there's some diff i guess? haha. Eyes a little bigger and my panda eyes lighter. But there's a mistake that i made. I didnt put on my contact lenses. =p

Act cute photo. lol. The diff in the complexion is kinda obvious here. Im using Silky Girl's bb cream, and it gives some kind of glow to the face. So it adds some rosy colour to my face.

Finished 3 papers so far.. 2 more to go~ The papers this sem are all MCQs. People may thought since they are just MCQs, they are just a piece of cake, but they are not very cute if they are all multiple answers qns and there's also negative marking. =.= Anyway.. i cant really be bothered. I got this feeling i've reached the saturation pt for studies. I really dont feel like studying anymore.. getting very tired. I need a break from the reports and exam madness.. but my break will only come in another 2yrs. HOPEFULLY. lol.

After i finished my paper on fri morning, i went to JP and started wondering around alone.Went to had my lunch at the food court then went to arcade to spam Jubeat~ HAHA. XD

Im totally addicted to Jubeat~ spent like $12 on the game. HAHA. That is like... 18 tunes in total? lol. I wonder who made me addicted.. hmm. LOL. =p Trying to master the extreme stages so i can play my fav tune~ Neu!!! XD Here's the link to my fav tune: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X-KNcx0WaNI

After i depleted all the $ in my arcade card, i walked out of the arcade and saw another source to waste my money.. Prize stage. =.= Walked in and saw a machine with.. ELMOOOOOOOO~ O_O Its like a kind of curse on me.. like im possessed. LOL. i cant resist the temptation and insert coins after coins when i cant catch the elmo. Ended up spending $15.. and best part was.. the elmo is still inside the machine. =.= DAMN IT.

With a disheartened mood, i bought a ring at $6 to console myself. lol. And i guess that was not enough to compensate for my spoiled mood, so i ended up buying another top for $40 and leggings for $20. My 失心疯 acting again. =.=

Ended up spending like $103 in a day???!!! D:

I think i cant go out alone, cos nobody's there to stop me at all. zzz Though i kinda enjoy the feeling to do everything alone. Its like a special kind of freedom, when there's no one to control me and i need not consider the feelings of others (not like when u go out with friends, u'll worry if your friends are interested in what u are doing or looking at). Just do whatever i want. Nice. But once in a while i guess.. if this prolonged for a long time, i may end up talking to strangers in the mall. haha.

Nevertheless, i reached the objective to release some of the stress aura accumulating in my body. lol.

When i was on my way back on train, i saw a ridiculously mesmerizing ang moh. hahaha. Although he's an ang moh, he has a tiny tinge of oriental look in him. Typical ang moh golden hair and fair skin, but i was captivated by his eyes. They are big and the double eyelid lines are so deep its like drawn by permanent marker. lol. He's kinda like.. an ang moh ver of Wang Lee Hom. Ok. Its hard to imagine, but nvm. HAHA. I swear i've nv seen a Caucasian that's so 帅 with my own eyes. haha. Cant help but keep peeping at him. XD Too bad i've to switch to the red line~ aww~ =p

Hmm.. Bon voyage~ =')

傻傻的我，到底是怎么了？

还记得，从前还常常听到你发的牢骚，在你百忙中打来的电话，发的简讯，告诉我你生活中的点点滴滴。如今，我不再接到你的电话，也没有收到你的简讯。终于鼓起勇气跟你交谈，却只感到你那冷漠的，甚至有些敷衍的回应。

以前，挂掉你的电话或是看到你简讯时，我有时还会摇摇头，心里想：“像个小孩一样。”

但是，我差点忘了，在每通电话，每则简讯后，我的脸上是带着笑容的。偶尔，这是一种负担。但，它是一种甜蜜的负担。心里原来不知不觉暖和了。=)

怎么现在才发现？应该是把一切当成理所当然吧。是一种。。。

习惯吧。

习惯你的存在。习惯属于你的关心。习惯属于你的气息。

我的手机好安静呀。总是不自觉地检查手机，好像在期待什么。期待什么呢？

傻傻的我，到底是怎么了？

有那么一点地想念你了。。。

I feel that.. Commitment is not something that you force yourself to do. Responsibility is a subset of commitment, but commitment is never a subset of responsibility. Commitment is not only about answering for your actions towards that special someone, it's also about doing things willingly for a person, without questioning yourself whether what you did is worth it or not.

If you truly love the person, you will be willing to do anything for him/her, sometimes even regardless whether its right or wrong. The level of commitment can sometimes surprise yourself. lol.

Taking myself for an example, once im in love, i'll love the person with all my heart and is willing to do anything for him. Sort of like the 飞蛾扑火 type. There's so much that Im willing to sacrifice and do for that someone.

I'll believe (majority of the time) that what he says is right (of course, have to be socially acceptable in the first place), and whatever he did is so 帅. Its like.. what some people see as a minus point of him, i'll see it like some good point. lol. Something like..“他吐痰都那么帅～”kinda exaggerated.. but you know what i mean right? haha.

I'll be willing to change everything for him as long as its not unreasonable. Want my hair long? I'll keep it as long as u want it to be. Want me to msg you and report what im doing everyday? I'll msg you every single detail if you like it. Dont want me to wear skirt? You'll never see me in skirt. Want me to stop seeing all my guy friends? oops. sorry. cant do that. I'm willing to change everything about myself, but as long as its anything related to my friends or family, im afraid I cant do that.. even for the person that I love. Cos.. they are as equally impt as bf.

Lastly, I think all guys are gonna love this. Im willing to forgive whatever that he does outside. What i mean is.. he can 劈腿 as many times as he like, as long as he doesnt bring the girl and show her in front of me. Cos I think the intention is pretty obvious that if he really bring the girl to me, he wants to break up with me. So, he can just have as much as he likes outside, but must still love me. That's how much i can accept.

People may say that its totally insane, or I'm just dumb. But how long can one be faithful to his/her partner? "你是我的唯一" is totally bullshit. After seeing the things around me, that sentence is just like a fairytale. So, being faithful to me, is an optional criteria of commitment. Having it is like a bonus, its rare you see. lol.

Hmm.. I think commitment is somehow a rather scary thing for me now. Cos.. the more you commit into something, the more you are gonna get hurt if the outcome is not what you expected. Its like doing business, you input your capital and if you do not receive the returns (or even suffer some loss) unlike what you expected, you feel defeated and fed up. You become paranoid.. illogical.. 患得患失。Fearing that you might lose your guy someday, fearing this and that. Sometimes people ended up 两手空空，遍体鳞伤。This is the situation that somehow i always get myself into. lol. So im scared. I dont want to get into this cycle again.

Then I'll start wondering.. Is there something wrong with me that resulted in this? I seriously need the answer to that man. I dont think im an unreasonable person, and though I'm not pretty, i dont think i look that 让人讨厌 right?

The wrong timing? Perhaps. The wrong person? Maybe. The wrong mindset? Probably.

I guess that will take me a whole lifetime to figure out. lol.

Heard about this song quite some time back, but didnt really pay attention to it. Just now my friend gave me the link and ask me to listen to this song. So just now was like the 1st time i really listen and understand what he's singing.

Was kinda attracted to his voice, so i did some research about the background of this singer. He is Chris Medina, and he was a contestant in American Idol. His fiancée was severely injured and paralysed in a car accident just before they were going to marry. However, he still chose to marry her and is willing to take care of her for the rest of his life. And this song is inspired by his story.

After hearing this story im even more touched by voice. T_T Its like singing his heart out.. showing his undying love for his wife, regardless of what happened to her.

This is what he said about the song:

“It’s a song about making promises and fulfilling them, about telling someone you love that you’ll be there and having them be able to count on you because you said it. Because the words that you say really mean something. It’s a powerful song.”

So true.. what are words if u dont mean anything? The words u say meant a lot to some people even without u realising it. The closer the person is to u, the greater the impact u have on them. So, dont make any promise to anyone if u know that u are going to break the promise someday. A broken promise can mean a broken heart or even broken hearts.

Once a victim of broken promises, so i can deeply understand how hurtful it is. Dont say some things when u only have a strong feeling towards it at that moment, say it and make sure what u've said can stay as it is for as long as u live.

Suddenly feel very angsty now cause i recalled what someone said to me about.. 2 yrs back? Believing in empty promises really wasted my life. I guess this kind of situation is even worse on married couples, when one party promises "Im going to change myself just for u", "there's no one other than u that i love", "u are the only one that im going to love for rest of my life." and then ended up sleeping with another person and even have the guts to say "u are definitely not the one that i love". Chopping and mincing this kind of people up is not even enough to forgive them.

Ok.. getting kinda too agitated already. *breathes* lol. Kinda making promises like some ugly beast trying to pounce on people. lol.

What i wanna say is.. promises are still beautiful... IF people can keep promises.. or else just forget about making them in the 1st place.

Btw.. im so lazy to start my revision! Im so dead.. im so interested in everything except studying. Jialat. LYNN PLEASE START STUDYING WILL YOU??? lol.